Apnoon Ka Saath – अपनों का साथ

कुछ लोगों को हम रिश्तों की,
बुनियाद सिखाने चले थे । x 2

वो चल दिए तो हमने पाया की
हमारे अपने रिश्ते बिखरे पड़े थे । x 2

चंद परछाइयों को हम हमने अपनों से ज्यादा सच माना
पर परछाइयों की तो फितरत है
अँधेरे में साथ छोड़ जाना ।

उस काली रोशिनी में एकाएक किसी ने
मेरा हाथ था थामा ,
पर ग़म के उस सागर में डूबे थे हम
की उस साथ का एहसान भी न माना ।

उजाला तो वही था पर ऑंखें हम दबा रखे थे,
खुशियों के उस सागर में भी हम
दिल में ग़म दबा रखे थे ।

एक आस थी ऐसी की वो खोया था जो
फिर वो वापस आएगा ,
हमारा हाथ थाम , हमारी आँखें खोल
हमे भी गोते लगवाएगा ।

उस अँधेरे वाले साथ ने फिर हमे गले से लगाया
और कहा की पास कहीं है
व्रक्ष की घनी छाया ।

मेरे अंतरमन ने बोल की क्यों तू है इतना रॊता ,
आँखें खोल , दुनिया देख,
न रह जा ऐसे सॊता ।

कोई न आएगा मदद को , जो खुद मदद न कर सका ,
तुझे ग़म देनें वाले तुझसे छीन लेंगे सारे सखा ।

पर मैं तो था एक जीवंत प्राणी
जो सांस चलते भी था मर पड़ा
पाल रहा था अपने दर्द को
कर रहा था उसे हर क्षण बड़ा ।

शायद जो पास थे उन्हें मैं देख न पाया
और दूर जाने वालों को मैं रॊक न पाया ।

मुझे चाहने वाले तो थे अभी भी
पर शायद मैं उन्हें कभी छह न पाया
और ये सच मैं औरों में कभी भी देख न पाया ।

अरे दोषी क्यों ठहरता है जो खुद दोषी तू रहा है
औरों से तू मांगता स्नेह पर अपनों की तुझे न परवाह है ।

नींद खुलेगी तब पायेगा
की क्या क्या तूने खोया है
अपनों का बलिदान न देखा
क्यूंकि हर उस क्षण तू रूया है ।

अभी समय है , आज बदल जा ,
देख तू क्या पा सकता है ,
अरे चले गए दो जाने वाले ,
पर निष्फल प्रेम तुझे अपनों का
आज भी हर पल मिलता है ।

मरा नहीं है मुर्ख अभी तू
न हुआ लुप्त कोई प्राणी है
दर्द भरा जो तेरे मन में
उस दर्द की न कोई वाणी है ।

यह सोच के मैंने आँखें खोली ,
और पाया कितना थक हूँ मैं ,
मेरे अपने करह रहे पीड़ा से ,
पर मदद करने से रुक हूँ मैं ।

पर आज मैं अपने अंतर्मन को हार नहीं दिलवाऊंगा ,
खुशियों के इस अपर सागर में ,
मैं सबको गोते लगवाऊंगा ।

क्यूंकि ख़ुशी मिलेगी हर गोते में ,
जब सब साथ आजायेंगे ,
साथ हँसेंगे , साथ गायेंगे ,
और साथ अपनों के हम सब मिलके
अपने ग़म भूल जायेंगे ।

—
शुभंशु मिश्रा

My AIESEC XP Feedback :-)

My AIESEC Experience and how it molded me

I am glad to have lived an almost 360 degree AIESEC experience which included CEED, Exchange, various leadership roles from OCP recruitments to VP CIM to LCP. I have seen failure and achievements at an equal scale in the organization and had the opportunity to follow and lead wonderful people. Some of my most favorite moments in AIESEC have been of Exchange experiences and interacting with interns from more than 20 countries. I found a finnish sister, made some life long friends in various countries.

However my most triumphant moments have been of representing IIT KGP at National and international level through AIESEC and making my LC proud by winning the very first awards and trophies at national level. I can never forget the adrenaline rush it gave me when we were appreciated so openly even though we were just an expansion.

I was privileged to be elected by the LC to lead it in its very first year as an independent local committee. That was the toughest and most challenging experience I had till now which had a huge impact on my life and my career. An experience which tested me, challenged me at every point and rewarded me with some wonderful companions for the long run in life.

I joined AIESEC because I wanted to dance and meet foreign people. And I did both in abundance and more. Doing tempo shout of KGP in every national conference was a proud moment for me, winning best Jive in NSC 2010 was another happy experience. Skooling for the LC and watching the MCP elections year after year 3 times consecutively has inspired me the most.

I won’t say AIESEC was all happiness but it was a sort of pride and excitement. Joy and sadness came in big packets and I didn’t have all I asked for but then I had more than what I asked for.

The organization has been about moments for me, small, simple, awesome, nervous, hectic, tired, over joyous, winning, motivating moments for me.

I can’t sum everything up here about what AIESEC means to me and how deep it goes in my heart. I found my first love through AIESEC, won first award in KGP through AIESEC, took first leadership role in life, spoke first time on stage through AIESEC and lots more.

I have been happy to have experienced both extreme love and hatred, joy and pain, success and failure in the LC and that is what makes my experience so rich. The journey had all colors and the picture is so beautifully painted in my mind that it is one master piece of my life.

AIESEC allowed me to make some of the most toughest decisions in my life, made me realize my core values and how to be true to myself. The opportunity to learn from people around me be it junior, senior, other LC people. Everyone and everything in AIESEC had something or the other to contribute to me.

AIESEC taught me to pursue my passions with 100% efforts which was the reason I even applied to US MC for MC VP position after my LCP term. I didn’t get selected but I was happy that I tried something which I wanted to do. I was happy that I did everything which was on offer for me in AIESEC in my 3.5 years of experience and am proud of each action and decision taken during those times.

I also feel proud to have recruited and closely worked with so many wonderful individuals in my teams who went on to become great leaders and contributors in the LC and outside of it.

The joy of being able to give back to the society be it through the smiles on children’s faces during a mega BKK or to our own students in Y2B, is unmatched by anything else. A chance to understand the workings and efforts of NGO’s in and around KGP and deliver conferences and events which make a life changing impact on people’s life is a truly cherish-able experience.

And yes the people, the ones who stuck through and some of the most wonderful gems of my life. There is nothing better than having a chance to change someone’s life for good. And AIESEC gave me a wonderful opportunity to do it for a few people. That is the most satisfying feeling of all.

AIESEC learnings have helped me in my current work experience where I have been a confident, eager and positive contributor to my team’s activities. The experience has also enabled me to pursue my boyhood dream of doing research which I will be doing in Information Sciences [IM in AIESEC lingo] from coming August. I was fascinated by this field of study after my VP CIM role in AIESEC and am still learning more and more about it.

I am still an AIESECer, a proud one and I still jive regularly. Infact you can see our jive recordings on youtube and enjoy

And above all AIESEC taught me to LIVE LIFE LIKE A JIVE.

AIESEC -> Journey, Music, Moments.

My Feedback to the LC:

AIESEC IIT KGP has huge potential but then the blunt truth which I have seen for years is that we are just too complacent and complaining to work to the best of our potential in AIESEC. 10 – 20 % people do more than 80 % work of the LC, show tempo and are active in the AIESEC national and global community.

If we want to excel in this organization we have to remember that an AIESEC XP is like a bank account. You will only get interest on what all you put into this organization. The organization has a lot to offer both in terms of experience, fun and network. Unfortunately, year after year I have seen people putting their excuses before their hard work in the organization. The very fact that this organization is nascent and new means you all have the opportunity to make it something wonderful. That itself is the biggest opportunity AIESEC IIT KGP gives you.

Learn to believe in the core idea of AIESEC exchange, its not about running after numbers but about giving maximum life changing experiences and making sure we are growing and making full use of our capacity.

And on the final note, AIESEC is emotional, no doubt about it, for many people are everything AIESEC is for them. But I suggest you all to learn to love the organization first. The values of the organization globally have brought it this far, emotions come and are human but at no point should emotions drive you to make decisions which harm the organization. Weather you are a leader in the organization or a member, remember you are responsible for this organization and people will look at this organization through you. The kind of example you set will be carried forward by your admirers and person you become will define what AIESEC has contributed to you. So choose wisely your actions and intent. Remember AIESEC XP is like the rules of open spaces “It starts when it starts” and “it ends when it ends”. What you do in that period is the best this that should be done.

As a closing note, I have been saying this since my AGM speech and I will say it again, bring home the trophy from Natcong Awards Night =)

All the best and be the best =)

How to write poetry with feel

How to write poem with a feel

Sitting one fine afternoon,
With musings in my head,
Looking back in time,
Thinking about the road ahead.

I don’t know why I wish to write,
A poem right now about my plight,
Its just a piece which flows out loud,
Inside my head which is always proud.

To call it plight is an instant thought,
Probably because of my vocabulary drought,
Its a feeling more profound than that,
Of goodness, confusion running like Jerry the rat.

Ramblings like these make sense no more,
But I note down thoughts to create my own folklore.
Being lazy about it is the usual way to go,
Sometimes I tell that habit a big big NO!!!

A lonely man in a lonely world,
Linked to all yet connected to none,
The crowd is all around in tons,
Firing at each other with each of their guns,

Sometime the guns are fired,
Other times not,
Shooting bullets of colors, music making people dance,
And other times leaving bodies to rot.

Music today is not touching at all,
Songs are not able to create that free fall,
The legs don’t want to dance right now,
Tired like the eyes below my brow.

But then the fingers type,
And I think in my mind,
The background track I play is Time,
And new rhymes I begin to find.

Now its time to get back to work,
The poem composed is a very nice perk,
The talk with myself is still a bit left,
About the title of the poem you have just read.

The song is ending and so is my time,
The title of the poem is not in my mind,
So I will call it simple but real,
“How to write poetry with feel”.

– Shubhanshu Mishra

Resolve overheating issue for AMD Radeon Graphics Card for GNOME 3.6 in Fedora 18

I have recently installed the Fedora 18 to my HP Envy 4 1002tx laptop which comes with AMD Radeon HD 7670M (2 GB DDR3 dedicated) with GNOME 3.6.2 and after logging in I was facing sever overheating issue and the laptop fan was making heavy noises. The overall battery backup was also getting reduced to some 1 hr 50 minutes.

The overheating was so sever that it was impossible to put my laptop on my lap as it was almost burning my legs.

I posted the issue on various forums and the full description can be found here: https://ask.fedoraproject.org/question/3811/fedora-18-severe-overheating-hp-envy-4-1002tx-in

I also tried installing the ATI radeon drivers using all the various methods like:

• kmod-catalyst
• akmod-catalyst
• Official driver for linux from ATI site.

In all cases I ran into config issues because of which I was unable to boot into GNOME. These could only be resolved after deleting the Xorg.conf file.

After using all the 3 approaches above on rebooting I lost the gnome shell and my system will not bring up gnome. After deleting the xorg.conf I was able to get into gnome but was only presented with the downgraded version of gnome in which the system settings feature stopped working.

I like the gnome 3.6.2 interface and would want to stick to it that is why I am still running my laptop in Fedora irrespective of the overheating issue.

So after a little bit of searching I found out that the issue is because of GNOME interface which uses a lot of CPU power. [BUG for this https://bugzilla.redhat.com/show_bug.cgi?id=812624]

In the process I also got to know about the GNOME Shell Extensions where I found a plugin called Radeon Power Profile Manager . I installed it by enabling GNOME Shell in my browser and clicking on Toggling the ON-OFF switch next to the plugin name.

After installing the plugin I just checked if the power management in my machine is set to profile or not. This can be down by:

$ cat /sys/class/drm/card0/device/power_method
[\code]

After installing the plugin I could see it in my top-bar as an option where I clicked on it and choose the Set profile to “low” option.
Radeon Power Profile Manager
After using this plugin my CPU temperature came back to normal in 15 minutes. And now it it working at a very optimum temperature.

 

UPDATE: Better method:

The last method was good but somehow I was not seeing significant effects as the extension was crashing after I rebooted. So after a lot of searching I found a better method which has given me better results than the last solution.

All you need to do is run the following commands:

modprobe radeon
chown -R $USER:$USER /sys/kernel/debug
echo OFF > /sys/kernel/debug/vgaswitcheroo/switch

After this you can run sensors. I saw a drop in Physical id temperature from 72 C to 52 C which is quite good.

However the solution is only temporary and will be lost if you reboot. So you can put this script in rc.local and then it will be applied each time you boot into your machine.

Edit your /etc/rc.d/rc.local with the following commands:

#!/usr/bin/env sh

modprobe radeon
echo OFF > /sys/kernel/debug/vgaswitcheroo/switch

And then enable it by running the following commands:

systemctl enable rc-local.service
systemctl start rc-local.service
systemctl status rc-local.service # Check the status if its running or not.

The solution is taken from: http://zhegu.wordpress.com/2013/01/11/fedora-linux-overheat-problem-on-sony-vaio/

So after days of searching I finally found the solution. Thanks to Stunts for making this plugin available. The full documentation for the plugin can be found at: 

Youth Leadership

Recently I encountered a question asking “How do you define Youth Leadership ?” on Quora and I found it a pretty good opportunity to reflect back on my experiences of youth leadership during my time in AIESEC. Here are my views on the topic. You can read the full answer on Quora.

There are phases in life when we break down completely, devoid of all focus, goals and hopes. Some individuals help us pick ourselves up, trying their best but we can only get up when we make those first steps to our revival. When we start making those small victories count again because we want to win a bigger battle once more. That is the time we get on all fours, pick ourselves up, try and just try honestly to stand tall. Taking one step at a time, asking for help, feeling better, creating new moments for ourselves. Moments which inspire us to do more and become more. And finally after all that trying, clawing to small opportunities in life once again we become 100%. We see the light and we rise again. We reach the pinnacle of aspirations once again. That moment we feel bliss. This was one such moment. My moment =)

Leadership is a broad term which encompasses many values like:

• Taking responsibility
• Being Passionate
• Driving change
• Standing out in the crowd
• Inspiring people around you
• Building a team
• Reaching goals
• Creating more leaders
• Being a role model
• And many more …

Leadership is not dependent of age a prep school kid can also be a leader by taking responsibility sincerely given to them by their teacher, parents, by helping their friends become better.

A leader can also be a 100 year old individual who can share their experience with individuals and inspire them to live a better life.

A youth leader however is crucial to the ecosystem of leadership in this world as  they not only have the wisdom after a few years of knowledge and facing life but they also have the exuberance to perform, the energy which they can induce in others through their acts. A youth leader has crossed the nascent stage of learning passionately and acting swiftly and is also at the stage where they can talk and justify their acts through the wisdom they have earned in the years.

Usually we would classify a youth leader as someone between the age of 17-30. An individual who is passionate about something and is leading either a team or just themselves towards achieving that goal. They are individuals who can communicate their passion through their acts and inspire others to join it as well.

There are lot of organizations focusing on evangelizing youth leadership all over the world. [Youth leadership]

The best ones among them which have centers in Pakistan as well are:

• AIESEC - AIESEC Pakistan, this is the country chapter of AIESEC, world’s largest youth run organization which has the vision of Peace and the Fulfilment of Humankind’s Potential.
• Rotary International - Another world famous youth leadership organization. The object of Rotary is to encourage & foster the ideal of service as a basis of worthy enterprise. Rotary Club of Karachi
• Toastmasters International - A nonprofit educational organization that operates clubs worldwide for the purpose of helping members improve theircommunication, public speaking and leadership skills. Toastmasters International in Pakistan